wad shud i do nw.. wher do i stand nw.. can sum1 pls tewl me.. im loz.. n hurt.. badly..



10 nurses vs 18 patients.. yet its still so bz.. y is dis so?? tot 2dae will b smooth sailing due ta d staffin.. b booboo fetched me frm wrk laz nite.. was in a gud mood.. but it all ended wen booboo was so jahat.. is dat a sign?? oh wells.. im jus glad dat everiting is ovr nw.. had our magnet audit in d wd 2dae.. heard dat d auditor was impressed.. im proud of it too.. but im lookin 4ward ta d 8daes off.. hope its soon.. hehes..

aniwaes.. im so so pissed off wif dat porter 2dae.. i was so damn bz settlin everiting n gettin everiting rdy fer her.. n instead of helpin me.. she kip naggin at my ear askin me ta hurry up.. n kip sayin dat she wanna go hm.. i oso wanna finish up everiting n go hm on tym wad.. nearly screamed at her lahs.. but tahan cos i dint wanna make a scene.. end up feel lyk burstin out everiting.. so many tings kept inside.. ARGHS~!!!!



sumtyms i dun wanna feel dis wae.. but yet i cant help feelin dis wae.. tot i saw *her*.. which im actuallie kinda afraid.. dint wanna tewl u at first.. but wen i told.. u asked *her*.. n said dat it helped broke ur silent fight.. n u dint xplain.. wanna feel glad dat i helped u.. but i cant.. mayb im dat selfish.. wad shud i do?? i reallie hate d me ryte nw.. i shud b more supportive.. n more trustin.. *u 4gt bout 2dae*



gt a sudden rush ta start writin my blog agn.. howeva.. been puttin it off cos my life's been thru so many ups n dwns lately.. finallie gt tym ta sit dwn n reflect bout laz yr.. n tink bout my resolutions fer dis yr.. was reallie lookin 4wd ta dis yr actuallie.. cos it was supposed ta b a special yr fer me.. but sumhw.. in d laz few mths.. i'v been tinkin bout lotsa stuffs.. n it kinda changed my perspective in a diff wae.. wun sae its a bad wae thou..

d start of 2010 isnt gud at all.. even at wrk.. RMS since 1st jan.. n thou its nt my pt.. but everi1 still kena.. end up i oso kena RMS myself.. sumtyms i jus feel so tired.. wanna quit.. but wad m i ta do if i quit?? moreover im startin sch agn soon.. nid d cash fer studies.. so.. jus hafta suck it up n jus get thru it.. hope tings will turn fer d betta sumhw.. but i guess i hafta learn hw ta relax more n take tings in my stride..

finallie wen out wif my jiemeis.. its been so long.. n car gave us a new name.. instead of jiemeis.. she called us "beauties n d beast".. to accomodate andy in our grp.. hahas.. but its still kinda weird ta b d onli guy in d grp i guess.. oh wells.. had a great tym wif dem.. thou moz of dem were targettin su.. fer her recent breakup.. s long s su's happie.. im happie fer her too.. to each their own.. but i cant wait till d nex mtg.. hees..

wanna go travel d world.. esp europe.. but hafta wrk hard n study hard 1st.. n hopefully i'll save enuff ta bakpack arnd europe fer 2 yrs.. or prob 4 yrs.. mite stae n learn bout d diff cultures n lifestyles in each n every city.. n town.. hopefully.. i'll b able ta find my special sum1 ta acc me bakpackin.. feel dat sum1's been hintin recently.. but im reallie at a loz rite nw.. dunno if we'll make it thru.. jus.. take a step at a tym i guess..

n hope my neck gets betta soon.. prob hafta go c a chinese acupuncturist soon.. (><,*)